unattainable love

or just obsession

not knowing what to think and just let go
hoping you are happy, but not too happy, enough to think about me.
You would never know how hurt I was
and how I agonized because of you
and how happy i could be just for a short moment
It is ok to you to fantasize a moment which is not allowed to me
but it’s ok
I will let you have whatever the fantasy as long as you won’t hurt me
I can hate you very quickly for your illusion and
as who you are - incapable of being an independent human being
good bye my love
so many time I told you so
and you come up to my conscious uncontrollable moment and time
i should be gracious as it happens to you as well
though nothing change

Bye my love till next our conscious cross our thoughts

and I always hate you as much as you occupy my heart and soul